Do I have a nurse?

I have to have the worst nurse on the floor. She may be my worst nurse ever. I saw her pop in during shift change and we explained what needs to happen so that my clusters are controlled and so that I don’t have the medication desert in the middle of the day that happened yesterday. Unfortunately, that wasn’t her plan. I didn’t get my daytime meds until 10:30. She gave me Norflex at 9:30 when I didn’t ask for it because I was going to use it during the drought. It’s every 12 hours, so I can’t have it again until tonight at 21:00. The Thorazine was supposed to be used around 23:00 and the Benadryl around 00:00. Thorazine and Benadryl work together to put my fat ass to sleep (and they do). Sometimes, I wake up and I’m in bed fully clothed and have no idea how or why.

Now, at 15:35, I’m eventually getting the Thorazine. That means I can’t use it again until 03:00. Hopefully, I’ll be asleep without the combo. This is the only place where I actually get some sleep.

It’s not that I haven’t said anything. I have to both her and the charge nurse. The charge nurse’s response was ‘you’ll work it out.’ We obviously haven’t bc she didn’t do what I asked in the first place and she continues not to do it. At this point, it’s nearly 16:00. Benadryl comes at 18:00. I can suffer through another hour and a half. Hell, it’s already been 2 hours. What’s another two? She hasn’t even ordered the new bag of histamine. I told her to put the Thorazine away so that I could use it tonight and to just give me a Xanax and a refill on the histamine. She doesn’t seem to have any clue as to what’s going on. I bet she comes in now and tells me that she can’t give me the Xanax because it’s too early.

My head is pushing an 8/9, up from a 5/6. I’m sure some of it is weather related, but most of it has to do with this situation. I ordered the Xanax abouI tried to avoid it, but I got fucked even harder. Of course the pharmacy was the problem (not ordering ahead of time because the pharmacy is always slow). Then someone tells her that ‘we’ have to wait an hour between bags. I told her that I don’t. I’d already wasted enough time today and could’ve gotten another bag in easy.

I’m really pissed off at the moment both at her and at the charge nurse. The charge nurse should have done something about it because this little girl doesn’t know what she’s doing other than being able to get a really, really bad blonde job. I’m off to the sunroom.