On our second meeting, Dr. Dragonfly explained a little bit more of what EMRD is. It’s all connected to the fight, flight or freeze modes that all animals have. Only humans are able to control them. People with chronic pain tend to stay in the freeze mode (high alert) and are never able to “shake it off.”
We started with a safe place, the safest place where I felt the most comfortable and protected in the world. I chose the Plaza Real in Barcelona. Then she put little vibrating things in my hand and told me to watch the lights going back and forth on the machine. Dr. Dragonfly started asking me about different things in the Plaza Real. What it was like; What I was doing; What other people were doing; smells, sounds everything. Every once in a while, she’s stop me and ask me how my body felt, not my mind or emotional state, but what my body was doing.
We left Barcelona and went to the “container.” Dr. Dragonfly asked me what kind of container I would use if I could dump all of my bad memories in it. I chose one of those huge WasteManagement type containers with the plastic lid. (Yes, I had to specify.) She asked me to put two or three “bad” memories in the container, not the really horrible stuff, but just some bad memories. Again, she would stop and ask questions during the process. If I was getting a little stressed, she would tell me to close the container and go back to the Plaza Real.